I’ve covered my issues before, like avoidance, being neurospicy and a people pleaser. And I did a good thing tonight, and it made me think about how I’m not good at being good to myself.

My good thing was telling someone how I and other people supported them on their journey towards being healthier, and how there were so many people who supported them on their journey. And , not going to lie, it felt good to lift them up. Because they’re good people, and they deserve it.

As I thought about how good it felt, I wished it felt that good to talk that way about myself. I’m an asshole to myself. I don’t believe in myself a lot, and I’m always giving in to the brain weasels and the shoulds. I should be this, I should be that, most of which has no basis in reality.

My new goal now is to talk to myself like I talk to other people. To lift myself up on that rising tide, as much as i push other people’s boats onto the waves. If I don’t know how to paddle in that water, how can I honestly tell people to dive in?

This is a short post, I know. But I’m not feeling the best due to vaccines and general garbage I had to deal with today. But I had people remind me that I am loved and I have friends and I am not alone in the battles I fight with myself. Won’t you wade out with me and take a swim? Good night.